My grandma was right men will weed themselves out but she didnt say female friends will do the same i really need someone to give a damn about me..at some point

I hate when guys come around only when its convenient for them thats when they answer the phone or call u...well im not on call anymore they can fuck themselves

I didnt really get into it but dammit with all this wedding talk i really want my prince charming too :(

Love my new job but i cant blog as much since i cant have my phone but i met a new guy his name is jay i met him through a friend but im not expecting much...

Started my new job today and lawd! There are so many fine men there but there's also plenty of hoes so this should be interesting

I think its funny when guys ive messed with dont want me to meet their new girls...dont lie and u'd have nothing to hide lol nobody is "just a friend"

I freakin luv Bill Maher he is the funniest political commentator...he goes in on politics and politicians with no mercy and its hilarious

I GOT IT! Girls fall in love with what they hear, boys fall in love with what they see thats why women wear makeup and men lie lol

Per tonights Girl talk: The worst feeling in the world is saying "i love u more" and knowing you're telling the truth. #Justathought

I think i was so into the thought of falling in love i forgot how to just be myself and let it come to me. No sex effect is in full swing...im learning who i am

It may seem like im all over the place but i just want to find the things that make me happy...Is that so bad?

Out of all their lies "i love you" was my favorite...i just wish someone had been telling the truth

The truth is i want to be in love because i cant help it! i want it to be a comfortable, no holds barred, just the way u are friendship that always was love.

So my birthday is next month ill be 27, a single mom, a single woman and as of monday probably unemployed (lay offs) this is not where i saw myself in 20 years

The photo shoot with ronnie got really sexy...i think i turned myself on cause ive been horny since then smdh i need a vibrator

Tonight is just what i needed...crab legs, beer and a seth rogen movie with my best guy friend "kevin" life threw a curveball at me and he caught it :)

Have u ever thought u might be in love with ur best friend? Its sad because u never wanna tell them and lose ur friend but its so hard to keep bottled in

Having a conversation with two guys who have both cheated on their gf but they both say they still dont want her with anyone else, possessive?! Wth! Men r crazy

Kevin got a new tattoo and i love it...did i mention i love tattoos

Im a sucker for sexy men! Even if they're just my friends

About to go do a photo shoot with "ronnie" then who knows what being single is kinda fun especially when u have enough guy friends to make one great boyfriend

Its nights like this when i wish i came home to someone with a glass of wine and a hug...i dont need to be alone w/ my thoughts 2nite...its all just too much

Im having the worst night ever and to top it off i have a ridiculous headache

I hate doing dishes, laundry and taking out the trash but i had a dream that someone came up behind me put his arms around my waist and said i love u #allbetter

Sometimes its hard being alone paying for everything...rent,bills,gas,daycare(yes im a mom),food,car maintenance it all falls on me im not sure i can do it

Btw im still trying this whole celibacy thing to see if i get different attention from men...so far so good

What makes "the one" the one? I guess i still have this romantic view of prince charming even though everybody says he doesnt exist...is chivalry dead? :(

I think men say shit just because its sounds right at the time...its not that he's not ready for a relationship he just doesnt want one with u...#fact

And why do i have at least 7 page views a day from the same ip addresses and only one follower?! Weird but fine i really just post to get things off my chest

Making sauteed chicken, garlic butter pasta and broccoli with cheese this might be lunch and dinner lol

Does anybody believe in real love anymore, i mean love at first sight or knowing u love someone by looking into their eyes....i still believe

Chillin with kevin and he's quickly becoming my best friend but i dont wanna date him

My only day off and i have no date or anything i went to IHOP with my fam and im running errands...this is boring :(

So im sitting in my apartment making brownies, sipping moscato and listening to ignorance by paramore and thinking...i stood my ground with ronnie today YAY ME! Im being strictly friendly with the other men in my life. i feel so good about myself now dont get me wrong i am a horny little bastard lol but its paying off because i feel like i have more control over my love life. "mystery man" emails me everyday and thats quite enough to hold my attention. i mean im a big girl i knw how to stay busy and ignore the bullshitters. i dont ask for much i just want a friend who lets us naturally evolve into something more if thats what its meant to be. it was time to delete most of the men in my life who meant nothing or meant too much and focusing on them was like having relationship A.D.D. i was always busy doing nothing. things may be starting to change around here....mmmm brownies with oreos im a beast in the kitchen! lol

And yes im texting "ronnie" right now...i hate that i knw he cares but i cant erase his past or change his mindset, im set in my ways and so is he...it sucks

Hey guys just got off work and im feeling really sexy today my hair isnt done but i look cute lol still thinking about yesterday but beyonce makes me feel okay

Sn: only ronnie seems to care...kareem aka "the friend who wants to be my man" doesnt even seem bothered, says a lot doesnt it

Def in tears right now. Just told ronnie and the "friend" we never named that i didnt want them or their sex anymore after 6 and 2 yrs that was hard as fuck!smh

I dont really play hard to get but i am hard to keep...i get bored quick maybe thats my problem lol

Texting "Ronnie" my on again off again for the past 6 years mostly off recently...i always say i wont talk to him anymore but i cant help it he knows me 2 well

Tornado watch all around me and i hate thunderstorms where are my men when i need them?! #Figures where is any man when u need them

Guy Friends

Okay confession time cause Im at work and have nothing to do...I know I said Kevin and I did good last night but seriously I wanted to have sex with him and I wanted to be his girl last night I was just okay without all of that and we actually had fun. We kinda played with our sexual tension and we had candid discussions which was easier because we'd already been there with each other so it was a comfortable feeling. I think I love my guy friends because they treat me like their "girl" they're honest with me, my doors are opened, my meals are paid for, my chairs are pulled out, they listen to me and I get more affection from them than any man I've ever dated. They're the reason I'll never settle for less...

On a better note there is a guy im really interested in only ive never met him. We met on the internet and just email but he's got my attention so we'll see...

I forgot to tell u guys the "friend" who said he wanted to be my man stood me up today lol not that i expected any different he never even called...thats not ok

On another note bitches are grimy as shit...just found out kevin and i's mutual friend has been talkin shit about both of us playing one against the other #foul

Yayyyy me! Great movie date with kevin we sat just on that border of lovers and friends. We just did us and had fun! These are the nights i luv...i feel good

At the movies with Kevin and i didnt pay!

At the movies with Kevin and i didnt pay!

So im watching The View and the surviving member of milli vanilli really can sing i might download his song. its sad that his friend died w/o telling his story

OMG! This guy who said he wants to be my bf Kareem calls me last night saying how he missed me, still wants to b w/ me havent heard from him in 2 weeks...y now?

being honest with myself

just watched top gun and got to thinking about this "country boy" i dated once we'll call him tommy. He was such a sweetheart but we never had sex he was actually doing things the right way but we ran in the same circle of friends and everybody just got in our business too much, i think it was overwhelming for him so we just fell apart. i miss him sometimes though. i was so hurt when kevin told me i was a self-centered bitch who never said im sorry and was overly confident but it didnt used to be like that i used to be the exact opposite. he said i needed to find balance but i dont think i can i think this is me, crazy...erratic...fireball...and completely unbalanced *kanye shrug*

So i really wanna go to the movies tomorrow to see Scream 4 but im not trying to spend a whole bunch of money so i cant ask Kevin to go cause i'd have to pay :(

Ooooh American Idol is on catch u guys in an hour! #Addicted

I dont just think about sex guys and im definitely not a ho but hey im single that doesnt mean i have to be celibate so bare with me

Did i really just tell "kevin" i didnt want to have sex with him?! Cause i really do want to but i dont wanna be single forever so i should stop eventually...

Changes

Hey guys I just changed my blog so now even those of you who aren't members and aren't following me can comment on my posts! I didn't even know I was blocking you lol

Horny

I swear sometimes I think like a man because right now I just want someone to throw me against the wall at work and have a quickie! Sex always calms me down and puts me in a great mood if its good. I just dont like the heartbreak that comes with not being in a relationship when I do it with the random men. Then again if I could just get one that I really didnt know outside of our sexual relationship and just left when we were done...no hugging no kissing just let me know when I can go to sleep

update

ok so the "friend" who wanted a discount for him and his jumpoff called and apologized i told him if he still wanted to be friends we probably shouldn't have sex anymore as it just complicates things so lets name him we'll call him kevin cause u'll definitely hear more about him. sn: women may be emotional but guys really need to realize emotional doesnt mean stupid...

feeling kinda odd today

hey everyone its kind of a sad day for me but its weird ya know cause im not in a relationship but dammit my feelings still get hurt. i had sex with this guy who i was supposed to really just be friends with not even friends with benefits. yeah i know that was wrong ok ok my bad! but then this idiot calls me 2 weeks later and tells me he might swing by my job and get a discount but he's going to bring another "friend" with him and he wants me to be there so he can definitely get a discount...WTH! Am I really supposed to give him and his jumpoff a discount? thats like a slap in my face like yeah im fucking u but let me just show u how many other girls im fucking too. then the other guy whom i talked to everyday while he was on deployment for 8 months comes back fucks me, kisses me, makesa spectacle of my feelings and moves in with another girl and by girl i mean an 18 year old with a big booty and more drama headed his way. i should say good riddens but 8 months does yield some sort of feelings...this shit sucks

4/13/2011

Hey guys so I haven't had sex in like a week and yes I'm feigning! But the last guy didnt even have a chance at getting in my pants after the way he showed his ass. This dude asked to come over to my house...when he got there he took a picture of my butt as I walked to the kitchen to get him a drink. *WEIRD but ehhh whatever!* When I came back to the living room he asked if we could watch a movie and proceeds to put in a porno *cue what the hell moment!* I told him I didn't wanna watch that but, when I turned to face him he was masturbating, I'd been laying on a pillow and didnt realize it. So I promptly told him to get the hell out! smmfh is this really what dating has been reduced to in 2011?