Never put your eggs in one basket...thats what my mama taught me. I should've listened smh

Sometimes i know shit and i just choose not to say anything so they can dig their own hole a little deeper :-(

Talking to my best friend Brittany again i needed her lol oh and i've had no contact with Jay and im okay right now. Idk about Freddy its something off there

To be real every woman has a side man the one on the backburner waiting for you to fuck up...you gotta give her a reason to let him go #imjustsayin

In a confused place right now:..rihanna- rehab is on repeat i think i want love so bad i cant see when they don't love me

Fell in love in a dream world...what happens when you have to live in reality again

Ok misunderstanding last night we didn't stand each other our phones kept us apart but i'm ready to just do this with Freddy. When we're together we're happy

So we go from a date of happy hour then a movie to beer at home then a movie to just beer and watching movies at home to nothing cause Freddy stood me up again

So still kinda hurt but Freddy and i are supposed to hang out tonight...i do love him i don't know why i try to deny it

Ever had someone tell you they wouldn't be with you cause you've been their hoe too long and they don't know you. You only cry because its true

They should add a new relationship status: is being played by...alot more ppl would have a status then. Sometimes i just want all your attention is that 2 much?

In one word AMAZING! But you apologize and turn around and do it again :-( if the others are that important then what am i? Ugh goodnight

Damn!

And he's still texting lol i'm gonna break his phone

Movie night with Jay i needed some time with my friend he keeps me grounded and honest!

Ya'll must've misunderstood me i don't want to hang out and have sex i want passion! Ugh! OH and cousin i know that was you...im too grown for a belt

Btw i'm still fucking horny why haven't i had mind blowing sex yet? This is getting ridiculous i mean it should not be this hard to cum i'd prefer 4x a week

Maybe i should try giving my all to the ones i don't really like cause they're the ones who seem to make an effort for me

My heart is so sensitive lol but alot of men think i love or loved them and i dont, didn't, never will but the men i honestly love dont notice or don't care hmm

Good lord im spilling my guts to Jay lately and i dont understand why oh boy the things that come out of my mouth. No word from new guy, Freddy text'd me...idk

So who's taking care of this massage and happy ending situation cause i'm still horny as fuck lol

So this dude at work told me i shine when i walk in so he had to know my name****that was a ill ass line lol hello sir my name is lol

Well new guy was a no show for coffee and a movie and yeah i'm mad but i'm not gonna hold it against him yet...we'll see what lame ass excuse he comes up with

OMG! wHo gets horny at work?! Nobody here turns me on im just daydreaming about sex smh i need to handle this when i get home which vibrator should i use?

He's still a heartbreaker though he just doesn't mean to be but he's even broken my heart before so...its a trend. Btw new guy on deck details to come later

Had a heart to heart with Jay last night that man is definitely a friend for life anytime you can talk about each others flaws and be okay with it thats real!

Damn i should've went to sleep when i turned the tv off 3 hours ago now im half awake and needing a massage with a happy ending lol

Btw Freddy is still a no show talked to him this morning but haven't heard a word since. he talks a good game but action is limited

Its times like these when men are just frustrating that i miss my ex girlfriend but men give me some feelings she never could and vice versa***oh to be bi :-/

my friends man this time lol if i hear another man say i really like you but i want to keep my options open...i'm gonna smack em #stoplying

I miss Freddy but he's promised to see me two nights in a row without showing then i hear nothing from him today :-( and yes he reads these but its still me

Just thinking how im not sure i can even give my best guy friend a hug anymore he has a new girl fucking/loving him every 5 seconds he's a heartbreaker #nasty

No i don't wonder why but i know when you wake up at 2am to that posted in your blog all you do is cry. I'm single what was i supposed to do? Wait 8 years? FML

Men will only do what we allow and Im not allowing bullshit anymore either play your part or go back to the minor leagues #imgrown

But things of that nature are done with him too we cant be sex buddies its disrespectful to roll off of me and call her :-/ when did i become that kind of girl?

Maybe thats y i slept with Jay my supposed best friend when i did because i wasn't getting the affection i needed with anyone else. The sex didn't feel forced

I didn't go see my friend from college when he came to town cause i knew It'd lead to sex, navy boy spent the night but there was no sex***idk i just want more

Can't believe i'm almost 7 years in with Freddy and its still not a real relationship my heart is getting weak and im not sure how much longer i can hang on.

Sex with me must be great but will anybody ever see me as more than that. I know its because i've allowed it but what happens when i don't

Had a great night Cain took me out for drinks and taught me how to play pool he's such a sweetheart but of course J.R. calls me and i just cant say no to him :/

Men suck***still haven't heard from Freddy my friend Cain was supposed to take me out since i had a bad day and stood me up. LoL i give up fuck em all

Been gone for a minute not much to write about really my girlfriends are the only ones i'm dating right now lol everybody else is M.I.A.