Attention

Why is it the one man I want attention from doesnt seem to have the time to give it to me? Ru has a lot going on and when I say alot I mean like finding out he has a 1 year old daughter kinda stuff yet he found the time to text me and let me know he was thinking about me and would like to see me after Christmas and other things calm down. Still not trusting Kareem highly doubt I'll fall for that again. But damn if Freddy still hasnt contacted me with the exception of a late night text around 2am the other day. WTF I just want him but it seems like he wants me in the arms of someone else...

12/22/11 dont wanna start a new year like this

Soooo didn't hear from Kareem today...not really surprised and to be honest Jay wouldn't be surprised either I told u I didn't trust him. Also haven't heard from Freddy it's like I get all the love in the world from him at other times I get none at all. If your life makes you too busy for me maybe u just don't need me in your life. All I ask for is a simple text or call so i know you're thinking about me if I don't get that and I can't get that y should i waste time with you. Anyway I spent the morning with j and that was nice. It was nice to be able to just relax and chill I wish I could have those kinda days with someone who loves me.

So update I haven't heard from freddy since last week he has been out of town but that's no excuse how long does it take to pick up a phone and send a text and ru haasnt spoken to me since got home from deployment it was only 2 weeks once again how long does it take to send a text? At least to let me know I'm on your mind gibby honest I think I'm the last thing on their minds... kareem has been trying extra hard lately but I still don't quite trust him and for good reason... I'm not ready to give up on ready yet I just want him to understand where I'm coming from. Jay and I are finally forming a good friendship not a friends with benefits just a good friendship and that feels nice I trust him with everything just not my heart LOL. I Don't think I care what happens with these guys anymore I have other things to focus on. Good or bad things to come I'm not sure but I guess will just wait and see...goodnight _@

Sooo I know I talk a lot of shit but I'm thoroughly confused
Here's the deal Ru is interested in getting to know me better, Freddy says he loves me and God knows he has my heart, and I see Jay for who is so I'm still decoding my future relationship with him. Now Kareem calls. And asked if I'd consider being with him this is too much so I'm gonna let fate be the judge and whoever I'm supposed to be with I will
I can't stress it anymore but I would like some good sex soon so I'm gonna need whoever he is to hurry up lmao

late night

Been alone in my bed for the past couple nights... can't really decide whether that's a good thing or a bad thing. It's like I want someone here but I want the right 1 here. And right now I just don't know who that is but maybe 1 day something will show me. By the way I have not heard from anybody else I was talking to other then ru and Jay. I guess freddy finally gave up on the facade to be honest I don't think he ever really loved me I think both of us were just in love with the idea of love

is it me?

Sometimes you think people care more about u than they actually do. Love has never done me anything but wrong...starting to wonder if its more me not them? Questions comments all are welcome

Jay and I have a special relationship. He tells me the truth because he cares for. Me deeply not too. Not because I forced him too. He just stopped and gave me the sweetest gift...respect

lish the ex girlfriend

In other news I'm back in touch with my ex girlfriend. Alisha. We're talking more but I remember that break up it wasn't pretty. She already made me an option once. She apologized and says that she misses me but I haven't responded and I'm scared to go see her I'm not sure I want those old feelings back

jay the breakup of a friendship

Just asked Jay something that had been weighing on my chest not even gonna lie I miss him but it'll never be the same. Just because u miss someone doesn't mean they belong in ur life

freddy and everybody

Im about to delete everybody's number I put my eggs together. And ended up alone for the past almost 2 weeks. I think Freddy's mad cause I said I wasn't coming over at 1am so he could fuck me ...oh well I keep telling him I'm no ones ho!

Never put your eggs in one basket...thats what my mama taught me. I should've listened smh

Sometimes i know shit and i just choose not to say anything so they can dig their own hole a little deeper :-(

Talking to my best friend Brittany again i needed her lol oh and i've had no contact with Jay and im okay right now. Idk about Freddy its something off there

To be real every woman has a side man the one on the backburner waiting for you to fuck up...you gotta give her a reason to let him go #imjustsayin

In a confused place right now:..rihanna- rehab is on repeat i think i want love so bad i cant see when they don't love me

Fell in love in a dream world...what happens when you have to live in reality again

Ok misunderstanding last night we didn't stand each other our phones kept us apart but i'm ready to just do this with Freddy. When we're together we're happy

So we go from a date of happy hour then a movie to beer at home then a movie to just beer and watching movies at home to nothing cause Freddy stood me up again

So still kinda hurt but Freddy and i are supposed to hang out tonight...i do love him i don't know why i try to deny it

Ever had someone tell you they wouldn't be with you cause you've been their hoe too long and they don't know you. You only cry because its true

They should add a new relationship status: is being played by...alot more ppl would have a status then. Sometimes i just want all your attention is that 2 much?

In one word AMAZING! But you apologize and turn around and do it again :-( if the others are that important then what am i? Ugh goodnight

Damn!

And he's still texting lol i'm gonna break his phone

Movie night with Jay i needed some time with my friend he keeps me grounded and honest!

Ya'll must've misunderstood me i don't want to hang out and have sex i want passion! Ugh! OH and cousin i know that was you...im too grown for a belt

Btw i'm still fucking horny why haven't i had mind blowing sex yet? This is getting ridiculous i mean it should not be this hard to cum i'd prefer 4x a week

Maybe i should try giving my all to the ones i don't really like cause they're the ones who seem to make an effort for me

My heart is so sensitive lol but alot of men think i love or loved them and i dont, didn't, never will but the men i honestly love dont notice or don't care hmm

Good lord im spilling my guts to Jay lately and i dont understand why oh boy the things that come out of my mouth. No word from new guy, Freddy text'd me...idk

So who's taking care of this massage and happy ending situation cause i'm still horny as fuck lol

So this dude at work told me i shine when i walk in so he had to know my name****that was a ill ass line lol hello sir my name is lol

Well new guy was a no show for coffee and a movie and yeah i'm mad but i'm not gonna hold it against him yet...we'll see what lame ass excuse he comes up with

OMG! wHo gets horny at work?! Nobody here turns me on im just daydreaming about sex smh i need to handle this when i get home which vibrator should i use?

He's still a heartbreaker though he just doesn't mean to be but he's even broken my heart before so...its a trend. Btw new guy on deck details to come later

Had a heart to heart with Jay last night that man is definitely a friend for life anytime you can talk about each others flaws and be okay with it thats real!

Damn i should've went to sleep when i turned the tv off 3 hours ago now im half awake and needing a massage with a happy ending lol

Btw Freddy is still a no show talked to him this morning but haven't heard a word since. he talks a good game but action is limited

Its times like these when men are just frustrating that i miss my ex girlfriend but men give me some feelings she never could and vice versa***oh to be bi :-/

my friends man this time lol if i hear another man say i really like you but i want to keep my options open...i'm gonna smack em #stoplying

I miss Freddy but he's promised to see me two nights in a row without showing then i hear nothing from him today :-( and yes he reads these but its still me

Just thinking how im not sure i can even give my best guy friend a hug anymore he has a new girl fucking/loving him every 5 seconds he's a heartbreaker #nasty

No i don't wonder why but i know when you wake up at 2am to that posted in your blog all you do is cry. I'm single what was i supposed to do? Wait 8 years? FML

Men will only do what we allow and Im not allowing bullshit anymore either play your part or go back to the minor leagues #imgrown

But things of that nature are done with him too we cant be sex buddies its disrespectful to roll off of me and call her :-/ when did i become that kind of girl?

Maybe thats y i slept with Jay my supposed best friend when i did because i wasn't getting the affection i needed with anyone else. The sex didn't feel forced

I didn't go see my friend from college when he came to town cause i knew It'd lead to sex, navy boy spent the night but there was no sex***idk i just want more

Can't believe i'm almost 7 years in with Freddy and its still not a real relationship my heart is getting weak and im not sure how much longer i can hang on.

Sex with me must be great but will anybody ever see me as more than that. I know its because i've allowed it but what happens when i don't

Had a great night Cain took me out for drinks and taught me how to play pool he's such a sweetheart but of course J.R. calls me and i just cant say no to him :/

Men suck***still haven't heard from Freddy my friend Cain was supposed to take me out since i had a bad day and stood me up. LoL i give up fuck em all

Been gone for a minute not much to write about really my girlfriends are the only ones i'm dating right now lol everybody else is M.I.A.

What i will say is rupie was the only one who was down to just hold me without trying to feel on me or do anything sexual i loved that but i love freddy more :*

The women around me have so much drama going on with their men and i just feel lost...i can't say if freddy is still just here for sex or y rupie keeps calling

sometimes women want to believe what a man says so bad we ignore what their actions are actually telling us...i'm just trying not to be that woman anymore :-)

Haven't heard from freddy since we spent the night together except for when i text'd him or anybody else who supposedly likes me. I don't like this feeling

It'd be nice to have someone here to hold me when i feel like shit aka right now but then i'd get them sick

Being single doesn't mean no one wants you...it means you don't want just anyone :-)

This sudden wave of horny just came over me i really want some crazy sex right now lol still reeling from lasT night :-)

He is simply amazing im so comfortable with him :-)

MMmm hugs from freddy equal awesome

Im chillin with my Freddy tonight! SO EXCITED!

I hate crying but sometimes when you don't feel like anything you do is right or you don't feel wanted in my case both the tears just start rolling smdh

mass msg lol "when a person really likes you they will make time for you. no excuses. no lies anything less than that is not worth your attention" per my aunt

And what is with men putting their dicks in our faces so we can give them head if we want to trust me we will but gently pushing our head that way doesnt help..

I just want someone to step and take the lead...tell me i'm yours, ask me out instead of asking cause im whining, let me offer sex/head stop forcing it :?

I'M HORNY AND DRUNK! I WANT HOT DRUNK SEX WITH FREDDY!!! NOW and he wont come over....this is nt supposed to happen maybe i suck at sex :( #drunkblog

At the Virginia Destroyers first home game! This is so much fun with the most lovely ladies in VA... Ahh girls night out what's better than football and beer!

Someone told me i was too intense today! She said my emotions are always to the extreme but i kinda like it that way apparently thats y im scaring men away...?

People say the best revenge is success and I agree but, sometimes being a vindictive b*tch is fun and karma is priceless! :) Gn fb

Just because a woman wants to see u and be around u doesn't mean she wants/needs to be ur girlfriend. When she cares 4 and trusts u...maybe then. LoL smh...men

Got a call from Ru the navy guy the other day...he wants to see me but i want to let things work with Freddy...i hope im heading the right way :)

Or maybe i just need to leave men alone for a min but then what do u do when u get horny i mean vibrators cant do everything...hmmmm decisions decisions

Whether i choose to have sex with them or not men dont seem to want me that long im starting to think im the problem...its kinda messing with my psyche

I said all that to say B was the reason i realized how into Freddy I was and we had a good night together on Sunday and then he stands me up Monday #WTF

I guess thats the way it goes but i really liked him i saw the signs that he wasnt that into me but i ignored them...im still kinda hurt though :(

So i never told u guys about B, maybe because there was nothing worth telling until it was over...one week we were good and the next week im nothing to him :(

Dude! I'm starting to realize "Freddy" is where i should've been this whole time I love that man

So i confirmed this with my brother...if the only way u hear from a man is when u text him first...he's not thinking about u as much as u do about him #next

So i confirmed this with my brother...if the only way u hear from a man is when u text him first...he's not thinking about u as much as u do about him #next

Honestly i just want to relax and have someone chase my heart, do things for me...u know take care of me for a change i'm tired of feeling like i dont matter :(

What kinda bullshit ass game is this? Thank god its preseason

Men are such douchebags! Not me this time but listening to a friends story about a man she loves who uses her and her heart willingly...i've been there :(

Another great night with "freddy" he's great oh and we managed not to have sex this time its nice justb eing held

Sex is a weapon...true but i need to remember to keep my finger on the trigger, aim and fire carefully gn guys

Pool party friday and the guy who supposedly likes me was all up in some other girls face then tried to leave with me...b*tch please i dont do second place well

Whooo! Long weekend already tried to go out with a guy thursday saw planet of the apes but was bored out of my mind great movie boring guy! Ugh lol

U ever hang out with someone u think u like then realize how much they bore u... #HumanADD

And yes i gave him a lapdance and we almost had sex but, then his phone rings so im stuck with a wet pussy and nothing to help i need a vibrator! Stat! LoL

Awesome night with "freddy" until he had to leave at the drop of a dime (family business) i really do love everything about him...just wish he felt the same :(

I mean like really all i wanted was to be held and a massage because i dont feel well but if it doesnt involve sex men aren 't as excited...

When ppl need me they expect me to be there immediately but the minute i need someone everybody's got an excuse as to why they cant be there

over and over

Ya know even though we've been off and on for now 6 years, I still dont know what draws me to "Freddy". I can force myself to like other people, I can make myself feel like sex with them is what I want...but I think I just want to belong to someone I want to be somebody's priority thats why I date these other guys with the promise of a future. See I've never actually been "Freddy's" girlfriend and I have no idea why. He was in love with someone else for a while but still if dont talk to him for a while he'll text me, if i dont hear from him for a while i never forget his number no matter how often i delete it. I know I love him and I think he loves me or at least has strong feelings for me because he's never let me go either. I just dont know what comes next for us and im scared im gonna have to wait forever to find out. My heart gets on my damn nerves sometimes

i hear this too often

I hate when people say "you knew what you were getting into" My response to that is, if I tell you I'm about to slap hot fire out you, and then actually slap you DEAD in your face, does knowing about the pain make it hurt any less? No, it doesn't!

Someone told me they love me yesterday but i dont think u can love me and not accept my flaws or my child...we all have a past if i love u i accept urs

Woke up this morning wanting to be next to someone...but i need the right one not just anyone

But of course the next day he texts me for a few hours, makes plans then stands me up and he's doing it again tonight...i want him to be the guy i dreamed about

So "rupie" came home, yes we had amazing sex, i haven't felt those sensations in a while foreplay was insane, salads tossed, pussy totally controlled #imgood

Twitter and facebook show men for the true liars they are! I dont even talk about who i have sex with on my own blog because these jerks check my blog

"Love is like peeing your pants, everyone can see it but only u can feel it" have a good night guys sorry im late :)

U ever wake up next to someone or look them in the eye and realize u don't love them and never will??#ihave

Yesterday is today's memory and tomorrow is today's dream so cherish each day as if it will never go away goodnight :)

Damn i knew it would happen im involved with and i actually like a married man...i gotta get out of this situation with my emotions intact

The worst battle is between what u know and what u feel...sometimes u need more strength than u have to say no

Dont ya hate when u cant stop thinking about someone or something but u know they're not thinking about u smh *crown and coke on deck*

Update: jay is tryna get back on my good side #doubtful, i havent emailed navy guy in a few days just tryna give him space and there's a married man after me :)

Damn he managed to make me feel used and not pretty all in one conversation i dont even think he knows or cares that he may have just hurt my feelings

I listen to u, u never let me go, we break up and make up, i know u, u know me we have the most passionate sex but somehow u dont love me..my past #menareweird

So i havent had sex in a while and its not bothering me i could care less what i miss is the intimacy...

So my ex girlfriend is texting me saying how things were better with me and she missed "us" meanwhile she's pregnant with her boyfriends baby #really?!

I had a bad day like really bad i need some good sex and a bottle of moscato

But the men who are right here and can see me, feel me, touch me dont give me any of that i mean stiff dicks great but not if thats all ya got

Talked to cain, ivery and rupie today its weird that these two one who's 600 miles away make me feel comfortable and navy boy makes me happy thru and email

Question: why is there a lightening storm outside my window right now? Thats scarier than a thunder storm thunder cant hurt me :(

Sn: am i the only woman who fantasizes about other women like celebrities cause i just wanna touch kim k's ass to see if its real lol

Is feeling really good today cant wait til "rupie" aka navy guy comes home...I really like him he's a great friend but there could be more there

Just saw bridesmaids last night and i felt like i was watching my life story thus far unfold #fml lol

This is the kind of shit that makes a good person turn into a bitch and a loner who doesnt trust or love anyone #ihateimmatureppl

So apparently jay and his friend think im an ass and a faker so he's nt giving me my money back and we're not friends anymore and im so fuckin hurt

Im at the club and i just got worked by a bunch of philipino guys i think i have a new favorite

So this chic leaves me a voicemail saying there is a problem over her man and i need to call her back...no name and no # lmao really?!

Oh and 7 days later still no word from my self proclaimed best friend "kevin" aka "jay" he owes me $70 and has my belt...Really?! It cannot be that serious

My dream is finding a partner who motivates me, my fantasy is finding a partner who works as hard at love as i do hmmm

Btw my "best friend" jay who now has a new gf 2 weeks after he broke up with the old one owed me some $$ and has been igging me ever since it was due back wtf!

So ive done some spring cleaning and deleted all unnecessary men from my life if i dont think you're here to stay you're already gone

Cant believe i didnt post anything yesterday but ive come to realize that having too many men in your life can affect your psyche. All the coming and going smh

FUN NIGHT with Ronnie drinks, friends and the game...im a happy girl things may not be the way i want them but being happy helps

Truth is i just want someone who im as comfortable with as i am w/ my friends and who makes me laugh, has ambition but is a sex god too is that too much to ask?

I think i only started to think i was falling for my best friend because he was the one fulfilling my "boyfriend cravings" i just wanted to feel truly loved

Some ppl r gonna hate this but i almost gave in 2nite for the first time in like 5 or 6 months...kareem apologized but it didnt seem real he wasnt even here 1hr

Good morning everyone in case u were feeling alone just know i care about u enough to send u this text luv janeai

Chillin with jay and we realllly act a damn fool but is it a friendship or something more? Dont knw dont care :) gn

Porno+cosmpolitan= how to learn the art of sex i know how to make it do what it do baby!

My grandma was right men will weed themselves out but she didnt say female friends will do the same i really need someone to give a damn about me..at some point

I hate when guys come around only when its convenient for them thats when they answer the phone or call u...well im not on call anymore they can fuck themselves

I didnt really get into it but dammit with all this wedding talk i really want my prince charming too :(

Love my new job but i cant blog as much since i cant have my phone but i met a new guy his name is jay i met him through a friend but im not expecting much...

Started my new job today and lawd! There are so many fine men there but there's also plenty of hoes so this should be interesting

I think its funny when guys ive messed with dont want me to meet their new girls...dont lie and u'd have nothing to hide lol nobody is "just a friend"

I freakin luv Bill Maher he is the funniest political commentator...he goes in on politics and politicians with no mercy and its hilarious

I GOT IT! Girls fall in love with what they hear, boys fall in love with what they see thats why women wear makeup and men lie lol

Per tonights Girl talk: The worst feeling in the world is saying "i love u more" and knowing you're telling the truth. #Justathought

I think i was so into the thought of falling in love i forgot how to just be myself and let it come to me. No sex effect is in full swing...im learning who i am

It may seem like im all over the place but i just want to find the things that make me happy...Is that so bad?

Out of all their lies "i love you" was my favorite...i just wish someone had been telling the truth

The truth is i want to be in love because i cant help it! i want it to be a comfortable, no holds barred, just the way u are friendship that always was love.

So my birthday is next month ill be 27, a single mom, a single woman and as of monday probably unemployed (lay offs) this is not where i saw myself in 20 years

The photo shoot with ronnie got really sexy...i think i turned myself on cause ive been horny since then smdh i need a vibrator

Tonight is just what i needed...crab legs, beer and a seth rogen movie with my best guy friend "kevin" life threw a curveball at me and he caught it :)

Have u ever thought u might be in love with ur best friend? Its sad because u never wanna tell them and lose ur friend but its so hard to keep bottled in

Having a conversation with two guys who have both cheated on their gf but they both say they still dont want her with anyone else, possessive?! Wth! Men r crazy

Kevin got a new tattoo and i love it...did i mention i love tattoos

Im a sucker for sexy men! Even if they're just my friends

About to go do a photo shoot with "ronnie" then who knows what being single is kinda fun especially when u have enough guy friends to make one great boyfriend

Its nights like this when i wish i came home to someone with a glass of wine and a hug...i dont need to be alone w/ my thoughts 2nite...its all just too much

Im having the worst night ever and to top it off i have a ridiculous headache

I hate doing dishes, laundry and taking out the trash but i had a dream that someone came up behind me put his arms around my waist and said i love u #allbetter

Sometimes its hard being alone paying for everything...rent,bills,gas,daycare(yes im a mom),food,car maintenance it all falls on me im not sure i can do it

Btw im still trying this whole celibacy thing to see if i get different attention from men...so far so good

What makes "the one" the one? I guess i still have this romantic view of prince charming even though everybody says he doesnt exist...is chivalry dead? :(

I think men say shit just because its sounds right at the time...its not that he's not ready for a relationship he just doesnt want one with u...#fact

And why do i have at least 7 page views a day from the same ip addresses and only one follower?! Weird but fine i really just post to get things off my chest

Making sauteed chicken, garlic butter pasta and broccoli with cheese this might be lunch and dinner lol

Does anybody believe in real love anymore, i mean love at first sight or knowing u love someone by looking into their eyes....i still believe

Chillin with kevin and he's quickly becoming my best friend but i dont wanna date him

My only day off and i have no date or anything i went to IHOP with my fam and im running errands...this is boring :(

So im sitting in my apartment making brownies, sipping moscato and listening to ignorance by paramore and thinking...i stood my ground with ronnie today YAY ME! Im being strictly friendly with the other men in my life. i feel so good about myself now dont get me wrong i am a horny little bastard lol but its paying off because i feel like i have more control over my love life. "mystery man" emails me everyday and thats quite enough to hold my attention. i mean im a big girl i knw how to stay busy and ignore the bullshitters. i dont ask for much i just want a friend who lets us naturally evolve into something more if thats what its meant to be. it was time to delete most of the men in my life who meant nothing or meant too much and focusing on them was like having relationship A.D.D. i was always busy doing nothing. things may be starting to change around here....mmmm brownies with oreos im a beast in the kitchen! lol

And yes im texting "ronnie" right now...i hate that i knw he cares but i cant erase his past or change his mindset, im set in my ways and so is he...it sucks

Hey guys just got off work and im feeling really sexy today my hair isnt done but i look cute lol still thinking about yesterday but beyonce makes me feel okay

Sn: only ronnie seems to care...kareem aka "the friend who wants to be my man" doesnt even seem bothered, says a lot doesnt it

Def in tears right now. Just told ronnie and the "friend" we never named that i didnt want them or their sex anymore after 6 and 2 yrs that was hard as fuck!smh

I dont really play hard to get but i am hard to keep...i get bored quick maybe thats my problem lol

Texting "Ronnie" my on again off again for the past 6 years mostly off recently...i always say i wont talk to him anymore but i cant help it he knows me 2 well

Tornado watch all around me and i hate thunderstorms where are my men when i need them?! #Figures where is any man when u need them

Guy Friends

Okay confession time cause Im at work and have nothing to do...I know I said Kevin and I did good last night but seriously I wanted to have sex with him and I wanted to be his girl last night I was just okay without all of that and we actually had fun. We kinda played with our sexual tension and we had candid discussions which was easier because we'd already been there with each other so it was a comfortable feeling. I think I love my guy friends because they treat me like their "girl" they're honest with me, my doors are opened, my meals are paid for, my chairs are pulled out, they listen to me and I get more affection from them than any man I've ever dated. They're the reason I'll never settle for less...

On a better note there is a guy im really interested in only ive never met him. We met on the internet and just email but he's got my attention so we'll see...

I forgot to tell u guys the "friend" who said he wanted to be my man stood me up today lol not that i expected any different he never even called...thats not ok

On another note bitches are grimy as shit...just found out kevin and i's mutual friend has been talkin shit about both of us playing one against the other #foul

Yayyyy me! Great movie date with kevin we sat just on that border of lovers and friends. We just did us and had fun! These are the nights i luv...i feel good

At the movies with Kevin and i didnt pay!

At the movies with Kevin and i didnt pay!

So im watching The View and the surviving member of milli vanilli really can sing i might download his song. its sad that his friend died w/o telling his story

OMG! This guy who said he wants to be my bf Kareem calls me last night saying how he missed me, still wants to b w/ me havent heard from him in 2 weeks...y now?

being honest with myself

just watched top gun and got to thinking about this "country boy" i dated once we'll call him tommy. He was such a sweetheart but we never had sex he was actually doing things the right way but we ran in the same circle of friends and everybody just got in our business too much, i think it was overwhelming for him so we just fell apart. i miss him sometimes though. i was so hurt when kevin told me i was a self-centered bitch who never said im sorry and was overly confident but it didnt used to be like that i used to be the exact opposite. he said i needed to find balance but i dont think i can i think this is me, crazy...erratic...fireball...and completely unbalanced *kanye shrug*

So i really wanna go to the movies tomorrow to see Scream 4 but im not trying to spend a whole bunch of money so i cant ask Kevin to go cause i'd have to pay :(

Ooooh American Idol is on catch u guys in an hour! #Addicted

I dont just think about sex guys and im definitely not a ho but hey im single that doesnt mean i have to be celibate so bare with me

Did i really just tell "kevin" i didnt want to have sex with him?! Cause i really do want to but i dont wanna be single forever so i should stop eventually...

Changes

Hey guys I just changed my blog so now even those of you who aren't members and aren't following me can comment on my posts! I didn't even know I was blocking you lol

Horny

I swear sometimes I think like a man because right now I just want someone to throw me against the wall at work and have a quickie! Sex always calms me down and puts me in a great mood if its good. I just dont like the heartbreak that comes with not being in a relationship when I do it with the random men. Then again if I could just get one that I really didnt know outside of our sexual relationship and just left when we were done...no hugging no kissing just let me know when I can go to sleep

update

ok so the "friend" who wanted a discount for him and his jumpoff called and apologized i told him if he still wanted to be friends we probably shouldn't have sex anymore as it just complicates things so lets name him we'll call him kevin cause u'll definitely hear more about him. sn: women may be emotional but guys really need to realize emotional doesnt mean stupid...

feeling kinda odd today

hey everyone its kind of a sad day for me but its weird ya know cause im not in a relationship but dammit my feelings still get hurt. i had sex with this guy who i was supposed to really just be friends with not even friends with benefits. yeah i know that was wrong ok ok my bad! but then this idiot calls me 2 weeks later and tells me he might swing by my job and get a discount but he's going to bring another "friend" with him and he wants me to be there so he can definitely get a discount...WTH! Am I really supposed to give him and his jumpoff a discount? thats like a slap in my face like yeah im fucking u but let me just show u how many other girls im fucking too. then the other guy whom i talked to everyday while he was on deployment for 8 months comes back fucks me, kisses me, makesa spectacle of my feelings and moves in with another girl and by girl i mean an 18 year old with a big booty and more drama headed his way. i should say good riddens but 8 months does yield some sort of feelings...this shit sucks

4/13/2011

Hey guys so I haven't had sex in like a week and yes I'm feigning! But the last guy didnt even have a chance at getting in my pants after the way he showed his ass. This dude asked to come over to my house...when he got there he took a picture of my butt as I walked to the kitchen to get him a drink. *WEIRD but ehhh whatever!* When I came back to the living room he asked if we could watch a movie and proceeds to put in a porno *cue what the hell moment!* I told him I didn't wanna watch that but, when I turned to face him he was masturbating, I'd been laying on a pillow and didnt realize it. So I promptly told him to get the hell out! smmfh is this really what dating has been reduced to in 2011?