The power of a lost love

So I went to the e.r. The other day for a sinus infection but while there I witnessed a real life love story. The young guy being rushed in by ambulance had just fallen off a 20 ft roof  and his family sat praying in the waiting room two doors down...his girlfriend sat crying alone saying that she was upset because she'd never told him she loved him and now may not get the chance. I thought to myself "that fuckin sucks" to love someone who loves you back and never know. Thankfully my doctor told me the man would be okay but the thought behind the girlfriends tears stuck with me. Then I read my friends blog about her own shock at the sudden loss of a past lover. It's just driving everything home for me at this point. Then to add insult to injury there also happened to be an old man pacing the hallways who admittedly was kind of annoying until I saw why he was there, his wife of 67 years had a heart attack and no one was sure she would make it. He just kept asking the doctors and nurses if they had updates and finally when one particular nurse got annoyed with him he said "ma'am I'm sorry but that woman has been my back bone for half of my life so if I lose her count me out too" I sat up and looked out in the hallway he had tears in his eyes and shit so did I. Love is a simple thing but losing love is a very powerful thing. That's the kind of shock that can change your life. There is at least a 50 year old age difference between everyone I mentioned but they were all going through the same thing. What would they have done differently? Did they do everything they said they would? What would happen next if this person leaves for a better place? I want the kind of love that old man had for his wife but I don't want to wait to say it. If its in my heart it's coming out and I admit this could be dangerous but I'll be damned if I lose the love of my life tomorrow without saying what i need to say today!

The one that loves you or the one you love???

We've all heard the saying "never leave the one you love for the one you like because the one you like will leave you for the one they love" and it is positively true! But what about the other side of that when someone loves you but you love someone else who may or may not have the same feelings...what do you do? The one who loves you should obviously be the first answer but what if you just can't bring yourself to be happy with them? Will it grow on you? Then there's always mr. Or ms. Almost perfect (there's just that one little thing that bugs the hell out of you) they don't love you but you are head over heels for them. I've been on both sides of the fence and I honestly can't say either way is best. You can either get stuck with someone you don't love for the rest of your life and they spend the rest of their lives miserably trying to make you happy...never gonna happen or you go and be with the one who you love and spend the rest of your life miserably trying to make them happy. Isn't there a happy medium where you love me and I love you I know some people find it but then there are some indecisive fuckers like me who aren't even looking the right direction! Smh sidebar yes I do love Freddy but we've been back and forth so many times and he's trying so hard now I feel like I'm not trying hard enough...sometimes life just gets in the way but is it for a reason?

friendlationships??? yea that's what i said

SHIT im falling hard...but thats another story. todays question my brain conjured up is have you ever been in a friendlationship? Yea me neither until recently I'd never heard of it.apparently its when you have a friend of the opposite sex you've done everything with except date. for those two ppl they are everything to each other,literally cant pull away from each other if they tried and most likely they have. they're opposites who have a lot in common he's not her type and shes not his but they're perfect compliments for each other. they drive each other and are utterly fascinated by each other. but they have never tried to be in a relationship because of other lovers, schedules, their past or simply fear of actually falling in love with each other. like could it be possible that the woman/man you swore would never be your mate is possibly "the one" and they've been right there the whole time. i mean sure they said they were happy you were with someone else but even then you end in each others arms and it doesn't feel like cheating. it feels like that's where your supposed to be. at what point do you venture into the unknown and find out if its really the love you've been craving? What ifs are no fun...does your heart jump when u see their smile? Do u get happy when they text u? If you needed someone would they be there? Are they beautiful to you even at their worse? Do you wish you had more time to spend with them? Then chances are you're in love with your friendlationship