Its been a minute

Sooo one of my friends told me I havent been posting enough but truthfully I have just been busy with life. I got laid off for the 2nd time in 2 years, my car blew a head gasket and my roommate is getting on my last nerve to the point where I'm not even home a lot and if I am Im in my room. I feel bad because she has been a big help to me and my daughter. She watches my daughter for free and we dont pay any rent at the house I just pay some bills here and there and help out where I can with food and gas but Im not just a leech she drives my car about 500 miles a week for work and I have to do all the repairs. That right there should be enough but no she also has a daycare that is running 24/7 yes 9 kids in and out of our house all the damn time Im tired and sometimes I just dont feel like dealing with other peoples kids. Now that Im working again I really dont feel like waking up early to watch one of her kids that comes before she gets home or going home and not being able to sit in my living room because there's 2 kids sleep or watching tv in there. I know thats how she pays the rent and bills but shit its annoying I dont really wanna buy food for the house because she gives it all to the daycare kids. I mean she makes good money at her night job just get a cheaper place! Oh and her neice who is pretty cool has my roommate washing her clothes every week Im not paying the water bill for that. I think she is so desperate to help everybody she is running herself into a hole and its beginning to piss me off because this is affecting my life. Did I mention there are 5 cats in the house too?! So yeah there's cat hair everywhere(except my room),cat food all over the kitchen making it look dirty,and there's always 10 eyes watching me or begging when I eat. I just dont like it anymore so every little thing bothers me. So Im looking for somewhere else to go.Oh and the ex that Im dating again just took like a week off from the relationship Im talking no calls or texts and no responses. He says he was stressed and had a lot on his mind that he just didnt feel like dealing with...cause I dont know what that feels like.His old phone is off and he felt like an apology and a few i love yous would do the trick but he doesnt know I've been damaged by that now I just want stability and action I dont care money or how much you've done for me in the past I look at the present and truth be told nobody is doing shit for me right now. BTW Jay has a new "friend" and I'm just praying for that girl. Im hoping he finally realizes the errors he made in the past and does right by this one although she's in the same pattern as the rest..."oh she's just a friend", "she's interesting"(they all have been), and jumping right into one after the other. I dont hate on him I just dont want him to be "that guy" the one no woman trusts because he's always looking for something better. I've been on both sides of that fence and it never works out...OH IS IT WRONG THAT I STILL MISS FREDDY? I just know he's not ready for our relationship...until next time FML